Man, today was a rough day. I knew this wasn't going to be easy, and I was probably going to shed my share of tears, but it is still rough. I had my little break down last night. And then a little one this morning, and not one but TWO at work today! My one this morning was just the reality of waking up on my sisters couch, and not in my own bed.

And then the two at work... I was already having a hell of a day. I only slept for like an hour last night. But I knew I needed to go to work. Atleast at work I would have other things on my mind to keep me busy. At home I would just sit and think about shit that I can't do anything about at this moment in time. Anyways, I guess I looked pretty rough this morning when I went in to work. I thought I looked pretty good! I just didn't bother with makeup today, I went with the natural look. But I have a clear complection, so I didn't really need the makeup anyways. But ya, everyone kept asking me if I was ok and what was wrong and blah blah blah. Thanks for the concern, but if I want to talk, I WILL TALK! If I'm not talking, it is probably best to let me have my space for now!

So ya, just the million and one questions. I was not answereing them, but they were constant and it had me thinking and I just started to cry. And then the other one was not even related to the stuff going on right now. "On eagels wings" came on the radio, and that made me cry too. I can't listen to that song. That was my aunts favorite song, and when she passed away we played it at her funeral. Now I cry every time I hear it.

Crying is good I guess. Botteling everything up will just make it worse. I just want to scream!! But it wont help anything. So a blog will I guess. I can just let everything out, and maybe someone will hear my cries, and something will turn around, eventually. Until then... I just have to take it one step at a time. Ater all, everything happens for a reason, right?